I’m not really a fan of spontaneity. Never really have been. Being in college, I’ve become OK with it because it just happens sometimes.
But I don’t like doing things with somebody unless I planned it the day or three days or a week before. I leave for things probably a little earlier than I need to because I want to be sure to give time for things that might happen on the way that would delay me. I don’t like stepping forward in an unfamiliar situation unless I have step-by-step instructions on how to handle it.
Whoops. Doesn’t happen all too often.
Funny thing is, to others Christianity seems similar to those spontaneous situations sometimes: no real firm foundation, no basis, no rationale, just believing and something unseen and unconfirmed and doing something. It even seems that way to us believers sometimes, taking steps as a blind man, not knowing if we’re going to walk smoothly or trip.
Beautiful truth: Christians don’t have “blind faith.” Sometimes we take steps that seem blind, but we have an unshakeable rationality for doing so.
My Experience Tells Me Different
I’m about to step into one of the most difficult seasons of my life: post-graduation. I graduate from Elon University in 25 days with a degree in communications with a concentration in print/online journalism and a religious studies minor. Just thinking about that is truly crazy. To think, just about four years ago I was getting ready to graduate from The O’Neal School in Southern Pines, N.C., prepped to head off to Elon to study cinema, to be a filmmaker.
So much has changed in my life since August 2010 when I entered Elon. I’ve grown closer to Christ, seen others believe in Him for the first time, developed strong relationships with brothers and sisters in the faith and so much more. And through it all, I’ve seen God prove Himself faithful. Let me count some of the ways:
- God was faithful to provide me with a strong community of believers during my sophomore year when other friendships were incredibly strained and broken.
- God was faithful to grow me in seeing the need for the spreading of the gospel through a mission trip to South Africa, a summer in Myrtle Beach and other experiences on campus at Elon where I was blessed with the opportunity to proclaim truth.
- God was faithful to give me opportunities to improve my writing and reporting abilities through classes, time spent on staff with the student newspaper and an internship with the local newspaper.
- God was faithful to convict me of sin in my life and push me towards a deeper understanding of His grace and forgiveness in the midst of conviction.
All throughout these four years, I’ve seen the truth of Romans 8:28 fulfilled over and over: “And we know that for those who love God all things work together for God, for those who are called according to his purpose.” God has proved Himself faithful by making everything work out for my good over and over and over and over and over and over again.
I Don’t Have to Fear
So if God has proved Himself faithful over and over, why do I still fear the future? I sat in the sun room at my house at school last night just fretting over and over about not having a job yet, not knowing if my current plan is a good one. Basically, not knowing the future.
I shouldn’t be upset that I don’t know the future, by the way.
So when I don’t see the future, when things seem blind, when I literally don’t know what’s going to happen, I can have faith that God will prove Himself faithful in some way. He’s promised to work all things together for my good. And He’s followed through with that promise in the past. I don’t have to fear anything.
But I don’t work that way, do I? I think of the Abraham story, when God asked him to sacrifice his only son Isaac even after God had promised to make a nation out of his bloodline. Hebrews 11 says Abraham was prepared to offer him up “by faith…He considered that God was able even to raise him from the dead, from which, figuratively speaking, he did receive him back” (v. 17, 19). He did what God commanded because He knew what God was capable of, knew that God would follow through with His promises to the extent of raising Isaac from the dead. Sometimes I don’t live like that because I like to have visual confirmation of everything. But as Christians, we don’t walk as blind. We walk with full confidence, full sight, clear sight, into situations.
It’s like driving around a blind curve (the picture above). We know generally where we’re going, we just don’t know what’s on the other side. But we go because we know where it’s headed.
I can have confidence that God will guide me where I need to go, confidence that I have all I need. I just need to take that step. As I step into my future, I can step into those unknown situations knowing that all things will work out for my true good and God’s glory because that’s what happened in the past and that’s what God has promised, and I can count on it happening again.
So can you.